I Really Need A Life

Friends, this is one of my browser windows currently on my desktop (yes I use Opera.) See all those little tabs at the top? Those are all blogs that are waiting to be read by moi. You see, I have a problem. When I'm reading through a blog, especially one that I'm reading through from the very beginning such as I Love You More Than Carrots, every time another blog is mentioned, I have to "right-click, open in new tab" so that I can go back and begin reading that blog. Does that make sense?

Example: Currently on ILYMTC (that is from July 8, 2011), AP mentions that she "admire[s] Jen for completing her 31 before 31 challenge and it got [her] thinking." And you see that friends? In that simple sentence is a link to Jen's blog. And what do I do? I "right-click, open in new tab" so that I can go and read Jen's blog after I'm caught up on ILYMTC.

I've done this over 51 times which is why my poor Opera is sucking all of the resources from my laptop and making it run slower than molasses in January. I'll continue to do this until I can't take it anymore and then I'll bookmark all of the blogs in my "to read" list and start again.

It's a bad habit, I know. I honestly don't understand why I feel the need to read ALL THE THINGS in the vast world of the interwebs, but I do. I guess I assume that if one of my favorite bloggers likes another blog, I'll like it too. Similar minds think alike right? Or I'm just crazy and can't leave a proverbial rock unturned. This probably explains why I had 100 tabs of WeddingBee opened before I decided I was sick and tired of all things wedding. Or the reason that it takes me so flippin' long to ever finish a video game because I couldn't possibly leave behind those cloth boots. Instead I'll make 10 million trips to town to sell everything a monster drops after I'm done hacking him to death (please someone get my lame attempt at a Diablo III reference.)

Anyone else feel like they need to read ALL THE THINGS? No just me? Well at least I'm open enough to share my crazies on the internet, right?




Oh bee-tee-dubs, ILYMTC has quickly turned into one of my favorite blogs. Run over to AP's little slice of the interwebs and read all about her amazingly adorable family. She's witty, funny and a great momma.

Life Slump

Yes, I know I've been ignoring this little piece of the web lately. In my defense, my life isn't that exciting. Any updates involve the wedding and can all be found on my wedding centered blog, Clover and Leaf. 

Another reason I haven't had much to say is because I feel like I'm going through some kind of life slump. Commence my bitching list for the week:

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I want to be freakin' married already. I'm honestly sick and tired of wedding planning. I don't understand how some couples do this engagement thing for 2+ years, 10 months has been way more than enough for us. 

After seeing my parents for approximately two hours this past weekend I've become immensely homesick. Don't ask me why. Maybe its because we're getting closer and closer to the wedding and I've become sentimental about everything, but I'm just really missing my family and Columbia which will always be home to me. 

I'm so sick and tired of the Mississippi heat. I hated the 90+ degree weather we got in Missouri, but this 105+ stuff has got to end. Let's just hope that I'm never preggers in the summer. I'll either kill someone or never come out of the house for 9 months. 

Both Keegan and I have been spending an absurd amount of hours at work which means that I get to see him for about 3 hours before we both pass out in bed. We're starting to feel more like roommates than soon-to-be husband and wife. We need a vacation. Bad. 

Speaking of vacations, we still don't know if/what/where we're honeymooning. Keegan's passport came in yesterday so he's free to go wherever, but mine still has yet to make an appearance (honestly I don't even know if it's been sent in. My mother conveniently fails to answer any of my texts about it.) 

Along with the fact that I just want this wedding thing to happen already, I've come down with a cast of the "I-want-to-please-everyones." Through this entire wedding process, I haven't asked many people for much. I have tried to be an easy going, laid back bride and take everything on myself so that no one else needs to stress. However, after small comment was made in passing over the weekend from Keegan's mom, I'm now worried that the small tasks that I have asked people to do are causing more stress than it's worth. Especially when I get an email from Keegan's mom that is starts with "My head is now spinning with wedding thoughts and what is my critical path for the next month." Sigh, so much for not stressing other people out.

My hair has been bugging the crap out of me. I don't know if it's the Mississippi heat/humidity or if it's just deciding to taunt me four weeks before my wedding, but it's become a curly, frizzy mess. And it has this way of hanging from my ponytail in just the right way that it tickles my neck/shoulders. I'm thisclose to chopping it off, but I know I need to wait until after the wedding. Sdjfajghj;aldgjaj

I believe wholeheartedly that our mail is getting lost. You can read about the entire saga here, but let's just say I'm not happy with our mail carrier right now. I need those RSVPs darn it! 

I'm so freaking tired of the political B.S. that has been filling my Facebook lately. Maybe I'd care more if I could vote, but I can't so I don't. Why can't we all be respectful of each other's feelings and opinions? Nothing bothers me more than someone who is closed minded and unwilling to listen to the other side of an issue. /rant. 

I wish I could stop thinking so much about the future. Honestly, I've been so wrapped up in wedding planning that I forgot my birthday is in a month (July 23 if you want to send me a present.) I've also been thinking about if/when we're going to have kids, where we're going to be living in a few years (especially when your soon to be hubby puts on his yearly evaluation that he's willing to live internationally,) and so much more. I've been having a really hard time just living in the present and being thankful for today. 

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Basically this past week I've been a roller coaster of emotions. I go from excited that we're getting married in a month to holycrapwe'regettingmarriedinamonth I have so much to do!, to tearing up because I know that no matter how hard I try, I won't be able to make everyone happy, to not caring about what anyone thinks. Overall, however, I'm thankful that I have Keegan by my side no matter how hard life gets.

So that's the end of my rant. I promise to come around here more often with happier things to report. This week has just been rough. 

Father's Day

This is the first Father's Day that I've been away from my dad, and honestly, it sucks. My mom sent me a picture of everyone out for dinner and it made me really sad that I couldn't be there.

My dad and I haven't had the easiest relationship (I once was an angsty teen like everyone else,) but ever since I went to college, I feel like our relationship has gotten so much stronger. I've realized how hard my dad works to provide for his family, even when he's feeling so crappy due to his illnesses. He doesn't let on how being sick has effected him which I know can't be easy to do.

I love my dad's corny jokes that he tells (I'm the only one who laughs at them,) and the way that we can talk about things that no one else seems to care about or understand, almost like our own little language.

I realize that I haven't always shown my dad how much I love, care, and respect him. Sometimes it's hard to let those feeling out, but I hope that he knows that he's my superhero. It amazes me how he can continue on living life as if nothing has changed even though I know he's hurting and not feeling well.

I know that some day, Keegan will be a great father to our future kids. I hope that they can also appreciate how wise and amazing their grandfather is.

I'm so excited that my dad will get to walk me down the aisle as well as marry Keegan and I. Not many girls can say that. I know that day will be extremely hard on both of my parents, but I'm so happy that my dad agreed to marry us. Ever since I was a little girl, I've always wanted my dad to marry me and my future husband (after I got past the fact that I couldn't marry my dad.) Getting through the ceremony is going to be so difficult with Keegan, my dad, and I crying throughout the entire thing, but it's going to be so special and be one of the most important days of my life. I will never forget the dance I will do with my dad. Those few moments will mean the world to me.

So dad, if you're reading this (which I'm sure you are,) I just wanted to say thank you. Thank you for never giving up on me when I was an angsty teen. Thank you for supporting me throughout college even when I didn't make the best decisions. Thank you for supporting Keegan and I when we left the comforts of home and started our own family in Mississippi. Thank you for agreeing to walk me down the aisle and marry Keegan and I in just a few weeks. Most of all, thank you for always being there for me and supporting me and our family.

I love you

Love,
Ais

Life in Today's World Amazes Me

As the title says, life in today's world amazes me sometimes. Yesterday, I was contacted with the offer to produce two websites for two companies here in SmallTown, Mississippi. Everything regarding the websites was talked about and negotiated over email. I have never spoken directly to this woman, and I have no idea who she is or what she looks like.

It just amazes me how things like a business transaction can be totally taken care of over the internet these days. In one way, I appreciate this since I stumble over my words and make myself look like a fool when talking to a customer about money, but in another way, it seems so strange to me. These people trust me with their business, website, money, and sometimes credit cards without knowing who I am, what I look like, or if I'm even a real person. Instances like this just make me even more wary about giving my credit card details over the internet, but it doesn't seem to phase most people.

Now I'm just waiting for them to figure out that I'm not a real graphic designer....*








(*I'm kidding. Kind of. In school,  I majored in fine arts with two semester of graphic design, so I feel like I have an eye for what colors go together, and how to make a website flow. However, I'm not skilled in HTML or any of those other computer languages it takes to make a website from the ground up. Honestly, I just plug and play in an already made template. I am totally honest with my customers and tell them this upfront, so if they want to keep paying me for this, I'm not complaining!) 

Catch Up

This past week has been uber busy, which is one reason why I haven't posted.

Highlights: 

~ Keegan and I mowed and weed eated (weed ate?) our back lawn last Sunday. Don't make fun of me, but that was the first time I had ever used a lawn mower. When I lived at home, my dad always mowed the lawn, and then I lived in dorms/apartments until Keegan and I moved into our house in February. It was quite a work out, especially since it was still 97 degrees outside at 7 p.m.

~ On Friday, we went to a wedding of Keegan's co-workers. You can all about it here.

~ Yesterday (Saturday) Keegan's brother, Derek, showed up somewhat unexpectedly at our house. Derek, his girlfriend, girlfriend's brother, and his girlfriend (confused yet?) were driving from Missouri to Florida for a week vacation. Keegan told Derek that our house was only 15 minutes outside of their drive so they decided to drop in and see the house. Now, it would have been an extra 15 minutes if Derek had driven the way that we usually do. However, he went some backwards way which meant they drove more than an hour out of their way. They texted us at 6:30 saying they were about an hour away, but they didn't get in until 9:30. Apparently their GPS got lost. They were only able to stay for about 30 minutes, so we fed them breakfast and got them pointed in the correct direction. It was great seeing Derek since we haven't seen him since Christmas. It was also fun to finally meet his long term girlfriend.

~ Last night we had our annual fundraiser at work. I learned one thing from the whole experience. I'm no smoozer. I get extremely awkward around people who I know have money and are in a high position of power. Let's just say I'm glad I didn't have to talk to the mayor, I would have definitely said something stupid. Overall, it went well and I think we made our goal.

Basically my entire week was getting ready for our fundraiser last night, so now that it's done, work should go back to being quiet. Hopefully I can get a few more posts in next week, since I usually post at work....(shhhh.)


In case you didn't know, I've moved all of my wedding posts over to my new wedding blog Clover & Leaf. I figured it would be best to have them all in one place and not take over this blog with all of my wedding rambling. If you're still interested in how the wedding is going, head over there and catch up!